
Yay it's end of wed! 10 more days to go and Zh will be back. Oh and the surprise I was talking about? Hadn't had any start to it yet! In need of inspirations!
Sigh my eye circles are coming back. Thought they went away after my Korea trip but... It's -2 degrees there now! I shall plan my first snow experience soon!
Sometimes don't feel good when people around me simply say "you earn alot lor" when I start saying things like I need to save or I can't spend so much on this and that. I feel the genuine need to manage my finances and words like that hurt me. Do they see the larger picture and longer term goals I see? I don't think so. And there are also comments like "wa govt job is easy money" "you mean you work hard meh?"... Do they see the work I do?
What I am saying is that I am not bragging about anything or showing that my circumstance is so much better than others. I don't like such sweeping statements about what I do and how much I earn. It's only a beginning for me and I acknowledge that it has so far been a good start. It's not like I have attained enlightenment or became the president of the united states.
Before making a statement like that to me or anyone else, do think of other dimensions of the person's life. I don't live only on a sheet of paper.
And in any case, I don't earn alot and I don't smack flies everyday waiting for pay day. I do have a family, a very highly possible future family and other considerations which may not be explicit to others other than myself. I do have long terms goals and plans which unfortunately is invisible to some.
I thank whoever is that for the comments about the paper life that you perceive I live in. I also appreciate future considerations about my feelings and value as an individual in this highly complex post-modern society.
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Introducing mr. Momo. He's no longer with us anymore.. And I'm missing him!
Zh acknowleged my loneliness without him and said we can get a pet (hammie or doggie) in future so that I have company even as he is away. Yay!
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It's a Monday again.. I watched 500 days of summer last night. Thought that it wasn't too bad. Liked it that he was a greeting card writer. Didn't like it when she said they were just friends. Especially love the Ikea scenes!
Work is pretty much ok. Used a lot of brain juice today to brainstorm of new recomnendations. Guess that's wad I am paid for. Afterall if I don't use my brain often, the cells are gonna die!
Looking forward to the new day tomorrow.
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Sigh. Wad a torture. There's still 13 days to go!
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The poached salmon nicoise with boiled quail's eggs.
The pasta with cherry tomato sauce.
Hmm I wonder how to rate this challenge. Firstly I didn't make the baked pumpkin because of the lack of time. Cooking is darn tiring! Second, I can't get the quantity and servings right. Dad and I were bloated just eating the above 2...
More work needed on the salmon dish to perfect it! Vinaigrette has to be made in advance; salmon cannot be too cooked; fish stock has to be made in advance as well.
But I guess not bad for the 1st try!
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A new girl came to office today. But she's only on a 2 week internship. How nice to still be in school.. It would be the holidays now and somewhere I would be practising with the orchestra.. Ohhh how I missed those days of endless practice. My hands are pretty rusty now!
Lunch was a little awkward. Have I lost touch communicating with a young girl? I think so. It must be a blessing in disguise that I am not a teacher now.
Watched the movie "Love Happens" with zh on sat just before he left. Some line inside stuck to my head and it is on the topic of funerals. I have never thought about the significance of funerals and this movie sort of "enlightened" me. Haha... It may seem like a ritualistic thing but somehow funerals are a necessary stage of our lives to celebrate that a life was lived. By the attendance of friends, relatives, family and even strangers, these moments show bits and pieces of how that individual has made an impact during his/her life time.
Suddenly, I feel that funerals are pretty meaningful. And I finally fully understood why it is tragic to have no one at one's funeral. Does it tell us that your life has merely been an empty sheet of paper? (or maybe you have too many enemies)
Had dinner at la mian xiao long bao. So sinful... Slept late again and has not clocked running for this week yet. Seems like wed is the only free day after work to do so!
Another 2 days of work. Friday is dept retreat day! But it's not exactly a fun fun day... Anyway the best part is that it will be away from office and near to my house!
18 days more to go :)
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The day begin on a low note. Bam! It's Monday, probably the most unpopular day of the week. Carrying my 1000 ton legs, I managed to reach office but immediately went to the toilet to release toxins. Never felt much better :P
Started on Cafe World on facebook. Ah bad choice because I have the constant need now to check on my cafe. Lucky lunch came by soon after a morn meeting. Well, and at this point I discovered that the sole on my heels are giving way! Boo.. But I guess it's a sign from heaven that I need new heels. Tsk tsk.
It started to rain, but I like rainy days. Office was freaking cold. But I was motivated to end the day soon! Replied emails did some work did some research... And time flew by quickly. The energizer came when dear zh called from ulu land of gold and jewels (and not forgetting the oil). Yummy treat of the day!
The clock strike 7.. The prompt to pack up and leave the freezer office. So much for a day at work...
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The beginning to a start of 3 weeks or 21 days whereby zh will be in the land of real gold lavish palaces...
Roughly 19 hours ago I said goodbye. He walked into the crowd of homogeneous men, short hair, polo and pants.. Somehow I managed to lose sight of him and he blended in without much effort. It wasn't any fancy goodbye.. As I have experienced many of such since he joined the workforce officially, this was just like any other. In his words, sending him off is rather redundant.
Not like he's off to war right.. Though I have secretly envisioned how it would be like. I would be very proud but needless to say freaking worried as well. Ah me and my imagination, fueled by the countless war films watched.
In the past, never thought I could miss a person this much. Not the same kind of feeling towards my sis or parents.. Last year I survived well even as I lived alone in that cubicle room in hall. I survived taking the exams without him physically around. I am strong!
This year seemed so much better. I guess it's because he has adjusted well. Or maybe or rather most likely there is a change of boss? It wasn't as bad tt he had to work countless days and nights. I want to believe in work life balance. There are people who can, so I don't see why one can't.
Today, quite randomly, I came to a conclusion. I ask myself "What is life?" and one word came to mind. If there is one word to describe life, it would be "choice". Life is all about choices, living and dealing with the effects or if you can call it consequences resulting from our own choices.
Think about it. Every circumstance every opportunity the essence of choice applies.
Hope all's well with Mr Cai. Maybe I should plan him a surprise when he gets back :D
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On the way to work now.. It's a pretty crowded train this morn, and didn't get a seat as usual. Today's Thursday! Pretty fast that the week is nearing the weekend again :) happiness! I kinda miss Seoul.. The shopping and sightseeing.. And of course the weather! Almost 2 weeks since we came back but it seemed like a longggg time ago that I went.
The shopping for beauty stuff and make up is madness!!! Wanna go back there and buy more :(
Feel like I am being random to pass the time on the train. This weekend shall be happening like last week's! Hmm time to plan something...
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Sigh. I was thinking of alot of things to tell him.. Like money plans after I read the website about BTO projects, discussion about me buying the MacBook, replying the Taiwan lady's email, future trekking plans after I read Life! today, and possibly about my first meeting with Chairman tomorrow... BUT, alas, tried calling for past 15 min only got a voice mail.. Was he asleep already? Thought there's a chance he should not be so because he called me enthusiastically after work to say we'll talk on phone later... BUT, after I got through finally, he has indeed fallen asleep when the sleepy voice greeted me. Somehow I needed to jot this down so that I won't forget what I wanna tell him... On the other hand, I wasn't too happy to be greeted with a sleepy voice. BUT who can I blame? I can't possibly blame him because he has tired out from work right. I am being silly again, and can't help feeling kind of disappointed. I was so ready for this call but too bad it didn't materialize. Will it still feel the same if I had to tell him all of these at another time in another setting?
I think to him these doesn't matter. Guys think such things dun matter. Afterall can just say at anytime what right? But somehow it doesn't feel the same anymore. I wonder if he realises or understands this?
Sigh.
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